Vigil

Which is worse, to hurt or to feel nothing?

Then again...to be unfeeling is a certain kind of agony in itself.

I think of Salinger's Franny chanting that verse she found in that slim book by a Russian monk & I think of M. sharing that dua to be recited for laylatul Qadr;

اللَّهُمَّ إِنَّكَ عَفُوٌ تُحِبُّ الْعَفْوَ فَاعْفُ عَنِّي 

'O Allah, you are the Forgiver, You love to forgive, so forgive me.'