Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Almost-Love.

I'll do almost anything for you
even if you do nothing for me.
Just a little acknowledgement from you
means the world to me.
What I feel for you is, Love
unlike that between friends, or even lovers.
For I deem you my almost-soulmate
My cruel yet witty confidant.

Whenever I think of death
I'll think of you. Of writing;
poems, letters. Of painting;
flowers, the Moon, the Sky
all addressed to only two, of which one is you.
My affection for you is quite limitless,
the intimacy I feel for you is a secret
I doubt you'll ever comprehend.

This almost-Love fondness I have for you
is very real to me.
As long as it stays hidden,
untainted by views of our conformist society
but most of all from you whom I Love, almost;
my warped, haloed vision of you (my Muse)
will stay folded in the crook between my soul & sanity.

Friday, August 19, 2011

Big M



My life is grotesque and dreadry
like a circus too shabby to make money
It is one big malaise.
Loathing people in proximity
I am tired, twisted and half-crazed.

Their presence, remarks, ignorance,
all vaulting my strained civility.
Badgering me with endless axioms
having me explain such trivialities
Why am I serving such penance?

Leave me be
oh, just leave me be.

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Love letters

I'll write you one everyday because see, sometimes I do understand the need to be loved. People who keep to themselves quite a bit value contact (with the right people) a lot more than the average person.

It's just that, I don't get to.

You know, write letters.

Friday, August 5, 2011

Rainbow in my window

Always. After it rains, I see a rainbow in my window.



The musky scent of rain cling to you
like cold weather does to bones,
distinct and unforgiving.
Silent yet resilient, just like rain
you water sadness with hope
and put out flames of shame.

Alone in the sky, palely loitering.
Warm to the eyes yet ever so distant
you're my solemn rainbow. My secret.
I can see your true colours
but only when you wish me to.
I'm asking you now; Linger here forever.