Saturday, July 11, 2015

Raw

To have the strength to be forgiving is the single most difficult feat imaginable.

It is not in my nature to be calm. I am only calm in a deliberate manner. When reason leaves me, and I am left to behave without thought, it is all fire.

All that simmering heat I quell by force comes unleashed and I am left at a precipice; to be angry or to collect the wounded Ego.

More often than not I fail both and end up  behaving in a snappish manner. Swallowing half the anger, channeling my guilt into half-calm.

In summary, an unsightly childlike discomposition. I wish I could simply disappear when such trying moments ensnare me.

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