Highs & Lows

My mood can be flippant at times

drying all my laughter

freezing all my smiles

but most of all

it hollows me, completely and utterly.

I don't mind getting on a high

but all highs end with lows.

When the lows dip too low

the devastation seems irreversible

lasting moments that feels like eternities.

I have to put down my defences

and throw away my reservations

just to stay intact.

For a while, detached

from detachment.

When I set these fires in my mind

I burn my heart and lit my soul.

Afterwards, the ashes fall and settle.
For once I wish the wind would sweep me up
suspend me in lightness, happiness.